"How come I haven't found the right one?"
Seems like you are in a hurry. Maybe you are.
Here, have a cup of chocolate or coffee and I'll tell you something.
Calm now. You've been looking too hard and I really do commend you for that.
It's been almost everyday that you try to figure out what you want and what how you would spend most of your days with your future partner. Passion burns. Your heart skips a beat.
For now, Calm down. Rest. Stay put. Maybe you already have it, but haven't really considered it. Like you haven't really thought of what's already there, in your hands, ready for life's whims. Ready for your love so that you really would want to give. It's a waste tho to really ignore it.
So, calm down. You've been neglecting your own needs. Minimizing yourself in the process of finding that other half that you seek. To not really look out for things that would make you flourish, things that you would probably enjoy doing as well but still haven't discovered it. Right when you think that this person might be the right one, something mysterious in this whole big and vast universe tells you, not yet.
For now, calm down.
Things get real hard as you again find yourself in the broken pieces that you've gave and have.
Even thought about how you did help that person you consider special just months or weeks ago. You laughed. You cried. It's crazy to think that this happened and it's a cycle that you haven't broken through over, and over, and over again.
But you want to.
You calm down.
In that slow, steady moment, you see that each pitfall you allowed yourself to stand up again and walk, then sprinting, then tripping, then walking again. That you've learned the value of time, the value of small gestures, the value of consistency, the value of small but powerful words like "Thank You" and "I Love You", and many more to mention because it gives you life and meaning to live on.
He was there. In the waiting. In the weeping. In the rising. In the revealing. He was.
Know that in every smile and frown He was there, smiling and frowning as well. He was there waiting for you if you fall and it's comeback right after. He was there in every person that came and left. He was there in every lesson you took heart. He was really there.
Time and time again, He was always there. In your "Now". In every moment, captured by probably a blink that neither can we comprehend, that everyday in it's hours, minutes, and seconds, there He was, patient, eager, waiting for the best and grandest opportunity to reveal that which you are looking for. It's been so long and yet a moment that seems like minute noe felt like an hour or a lifetime. It's such a good feeling to know all these. You desire knowing Him and more of His great love. To find Him in knowing. To calm down a bit and know that He was the God who went alongside you in the journey, to tell you to "calm down".
So wait. Calm down. Lay out your cards. And look.
Maybe all that you needed was to know that He was there.
RM Cristobal is behind the blog RM Wanders. He's a multimedia artist and a blogger/vlogger. A guy who loves to travel, eat, teach, and use media to live and love for the Glory of God. Connect with him through the social media links!